1. I don’t use a fake name/pen name anymore, have used it only once, that too back in MSN, just like a friend of mine asked me a bit ago if I used one, to ward off the monsters who stalk me, well I don’t anymore, after spending years in their clutches, being afraid of stepping out of the house I realized that by hiding from the rest of the world I have given them immense control over myself, they could just shuffle me from one cage of theirs to other, making my financial independence impossible (you don’t know the type of office I have tried for earning my bread, and you don’t want to know, I don’t want to share those days either… they were repulsive or annoying or both).
2. I have spent my first 16 years of life in UP, Bihar, Delhi and Faridabad, after that I returned to my ancestral hometown (so it is my hometown too I guess) burdwan, lived most of my life in west Bengal, esp in burdwan (apart from burdwan I have resided only in Kolkata), my schooling and college was there after class nine. This is my first visit/stay to south india and I am liking it, the south Indians are quite cool people! the best part is I don’t understand their language, I don’t want to either!
3. I am not married, and of-course I never had kids [in india unmarried people have kids but mostly throw them away in dustbins, so I will say I am glad that I never rolled on the hay with a traitor or anyone, I never had a romance forget about **** IF ANYONE EVER CLAIMS THAT HE HAS BEEN MY LOVER YOU CAN KICK HIS TEETH OUT AND SEND SOME OF THEM TO ME 🙂 SHE IS OUT OF QUESTION I AM TOO ALLERGIC TO INDIAN WOMEN, so no romance, no two sided love affair, kid or adopted a kid (I have met people in life, in last 15 years, who have asked me endless questions about a child, as if they were disappointed to not see a child in my houses ;p), glad that I did not], the funny thing is, when people look at people of my age they always start searching a child ;), well, those who have read the charons or honeytrap will most probably agree with me (I don’t care if they don’t) that a person like me, who has been constantly harassed and tormented by hookers and human traffickers should not dream about romance, marriage and esp. kids. In India marriage means effecting the entire family, now honestly I am not a monster to let those ghouls stalk my loved ones again. So while they worked on me, I too worked on myself and rose above any desire to be with human being, now I really don’t see anything that interesting in them, they are good but I don’t want them in my life anymore. The only thing I truly want is God avenging me. I hope and pray every day that she will! If I ever marry I will share that part, I may not share my husband’s name, my kid’s pix but I will not publish as Miss Sharmishtha Basu, not much of a hiding type, hate secrets and lies because I have very lousy memory.
4. I have long time ago faced reality and have accepted it, the first thing I did after that was kill the romantic in me, and in place of falling in love with real human beings I diverted my romantic leo to moviestars 😉 and have been living happily ever after, will continue too, there are too many hot candidates in silver screen. So, after embracing reality in full form I shared my photo and joined facebook, the most vulnerable media that gives out everything about you, it allows your “friends” to call you on your phone, of-course it says it does not shares your phone number … but… so the gist is, I don’t hide anything about myself, the only thing I lie about is my ex family, I cant tell the truth about them, or the assumptions I have made about their lives so I just place them in other planets and create imaginary worlds around them. That too when some idiot, good for nothing casual acquaintance grills about them. So everything I tell you about myself- my age, my name, my gender, my caste, religion, marital status, job status (unemployed) are true… if you are curious about something ask me you will get the true answer. But be warned, these hookers and their comrades have been lying about me behind my back a lot, sometimes impersonating at me, so at the end, I will suggest you to stay cyber-friend, try not to meet me, or anyone claiming to be me, you may end up duped or killed!
I always had a eerie feeling that someone/multiple women and their puppets help in showing someone/more than one person as me, most probably that woman is dark complexioned,fat with a son ten or eleven years old now, rich and well established- how fantastic a game it must be to play, on one hand they have been methodically destroying my life, and most probably every time I befriend someone that cow shows up pretending to be me to convince him that s/he has been reading the sob story of a liar alligator, who lies her heads off to win sympathy from others. Maybe that is why those people ask me dozens of questions about my “kid/son”
So, just remember one thing, I am not even remotely interested in lying about my identity, my other details, I certainly wont share my address, phone number with everyone, but apart from such important things, unimportant things will be shared, just ask.
If I marry in future, that is, if I ever meet a decent man (in my definition) who had strong enough digestive system to digest my past and live happily with me for the rest of our life I WONT HIDE IT, MY BOOKS WILL COME AS MRS SHARMISHTHA …. I WILL CERTAINLY TAKE HIS SURNAME, WILL WEAR VERMILLION IN MY FOREHEAD AND HAIR PARTING (VERMILLION/SINDOOR IS MUST FOR EVERY MARRIED HINDU WOMAN UNLESS SHE IS WIDOW OR WANTS HER HUBBY TO EXPIRE AS PER HINDUISM) I LOVE THESE PARTS OF MARRIAGE, ALWAYS HAVE. SO ONE LOOK IN MY PICTURE POST MARRIAGE AND YOU WILL KNOW I AM MARRIED, EVEN IF I MARRY A NON-HINDU I WONT BECOME A NON-HINDU, I WILL STAY HINDU! I certainly take care of two things- one he is not interested in children (preferably cant have one) and have NO FAMILY AND IS NOT A RESIDENT OF INDIA, ASIA. I REALLY WILL NEVER INVITE MY HUSBAND TO HELL, I WILL RATHER GO OUT OF HELL TO HIS PLACE. I HAVE FACED THE WORST IN LIFE, SO UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES WILL I SKULK VIA BACK DOOR, THAT WILL ONLY STRENGTHEN THOSE WHO HAVE RUINED ME.